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Just felt led to be abit preachy today, sorry to the rest of you guys.



" There's a perfection in God even when He says 'No'!", Nick Vujicic


Wow. Think about that for a moment now. Many of us, when we seek God in prayer, we pray according to our own will. But we gotta realise, if our prayer isnt according to His will, nothing will happen even if the whole church prays together.

So time and time again we go back to God, asking Him to do this, and do that, and things are not happening, so u get frustrated and ask: 'Why is God not answering my prayers?'.

Dude, God answered, but He said No.

So before we get annoyed with God, we need to realise that God has a plan for us. If your heart is desiring what isnt in His plan for you, good news is, you'll never get it.


What Nick said impacted me, and i feel that its a important learning point for many of us, who get tired from praying and fasting but things are not happenning. Remember to always reflect on your prayer and align yourself according to His will.


p.s. watch Nick Vujicic's sharing here, starting from 01:03:00.





alrite. thats gonna be all. tough week it has been, tougher week ahead. being 38 days away from 'A's is not fun at all...

A bus station is where bus stops.
A train station is where train stops.
On my desk, I have a work station .... what more can I say..........

The College Anthem

Like the rising fountain,
Our ardent hopes reach to the sky.
But the fountain stands alone,
Though not you and I.

For together we plan,
Together we build,
A firm foundation is our stand.
United our course,
Forward we march,
Our College's name proclaim!

Like the graceful palm tree,
We stand together strong and free.
Yet the palm tree stands alone,
A lonely sight to see.

*chorus*

Like the ever burning flame,
Our youthful hearts with fervour glow.
Yet the bright flame burns alone,
That's not the right we know.

*chorus*

**section in italic removed in 2001

the day

turning 18 allows you to drink, smoke, watch m-18 movies, get a driving license, and a few others.

i did none of those today. or rather i will not. instead, i am stuck with physics. and the dumb feeling of being owned by maths. oh well. thats life. best bday ever.

but of cos there were some nicer stuff. thx ronnie, and all the rest for ur wishes.

welcome to the real world, where hard work is the rule of thumb, and taikoism reigns no more.

nick vujicic

think life sucks?

watch this

and think again.


nick came to speak at cityharvest yesterday, and i was really touched and inspired by him. please, do read more about him on the website www.lifewithoutlimbs.org


got a friend going thru a rough patch? he needs to know nick.

tmr

after fighting for 12 years, its finally here.. tmr, prelims begin. its a dress rehearsal, of our capabilities, and our future. this sucks, cos there is only ONE rehearsal.

Lord, i need all the help i can get. Thank You Jesus.

countdown. d-day minus 4

4 days to prelims. but everythings gonna be alrite.

intense mugging everyday at natlib lvl5. hah. tmr im gonna camp there super early. hope i get my prime seat. fellow muggers welcomed to join me. but better be early else u'll have to warm the floor.

by request, i have been obliged to update my blog, and in particular, i will focus on a particular pretty girl who had recently made it big. presenting miss ngee ann!:




oops. i meant miss act cute ngee ann. lol.


and i was just trying to find a ugly phto of her. u know, ugly photos of famous stars are worth alot... and actually i found one. but pretty girl forbid me to post... =(( too bad lahsss....

death?

Julius told me a story today. though i share it with you guys.


Conversation between a nun and some doctors.


Nun: What is the opposite of death?

Doctors: (thinking that the answer is obvious) why of course, its LIFE!

Nun: That's where you're wrong. the opposite of DEATH is BIRTH. God control Birth and Death, they are similar. But lives are in our own hands. Humans can decide what to do and affect LIFE, that's what you guys do, ad that's what we all have to do.

Doctors: *stun*



i was blown away because it made me remember that indeed, how i lead my life is my own choice. It is as a mattr of fact within my control! just a few months back i spoke to an assembly of students about the power of CHOICE. Yet somehow recently, i lack the courage to exercise my rational choice-making ability. Yes, discipline is indeed a choice...

stjames

the 29th and the 30th @ stjames.



random picture, but just felt like posting it...

ECTOR!

sorry for this delayed update. really just been buzy abt other stuff... my gratitude to u guys who still come to visit me here regularly, even though it is very much stagnant. (beware of dengue)


its finally the nat day holidays. 5 days duneed go college... phew... gd time to catch up on sleep (and yes, work).


had ECTOR bbq todae. great time talking to the kids + special guest germ tan. realised that my cohort quite decent. j1 full of scandalous happennings. hah!

a.r bernard weekend at expo hall 8. its gonna be good!



off to hit the books (literally). TATA!

fender

any sponsors?

oh em gee

im approaching full employment!!


i need to expand my PPC curve. arggghhh!!

Every Little Thing - Delirious?

Every Little Thing - Delirious?

Everything must change
There’s a mirror showing me the ugly truth
These bones they ache with holy fire
But I’ve got nothing to give, just a life to live
If your world is without colour
I will carry you, if you carry me

Every little thing’s gonna be alright
Every little thing’s gonna be alright [x2]

There’s no-one else to blame
I live my life between the fire and the flame
I’ve built my house where the ocean meets the land
It’s time to live again, pull my dreams out of the sand
Let your world be full of colour
I will carry you, if you carry me

When it’s all falling down on you
You’re crying out but you’re breaking in two
When it’s all crashing down on you
When there’s nothing you can do
There is someone who can carry you

Love Thy Enemy

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let X denote unknown variable.

X to me: "you know honestly, i don't really care what you think about me. Like it or not, im gonna be a part of your life and you can't escape from me. No matter what you tell others about me you cant deny the power and influence i have over your decisons now. so since you have to bear with me anyway, i suggest you put on a positive mindset. no use hating me because it won't change things. On the contuary, start loving me and you will find that LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL."

let P1 be the proposition "X=Mathematics" where i hate X.

since Lester hates mathematics,
P1 is true thus Pn is true for all values of X. #

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ok whatever. just a thought that struck me while on the way home. X can be anything. it may be sumone, something, and object, a subject. Whatever you may want X to be, you'll find that hatred makes no progress, instead, LOVE THY ENEMY and Life just might suck a little less.



Matthew 5:44 King James Version (KJV)
But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;




As of today, Lester Loves Maths

to pod or not to pod

wah stress!!

background story: i own a 3rd gen iPod bought 4 years ago. it has been my treasure and has seen me thru my darest and happiest times. no doubt its old. no colour screen, no video capabilities, touch screen function and 4 nav buttons are seperate from the click wheel. yeah u get the drift - its antique. its also been affectionately termed - "the grandfather".

Leading-in: over the ast one week, i notice the power capabilities of my grandfather dropping. it used to be able to last me approx 8 hours of listening on full charge (thats commendable for a 3-year-old electronic gadget). aniway, the last few days, my iPod can barely last the journey from home to school (<40mins). and after i switch it off, whatever power left magically dissappears. that means i am unable to listen in when im studying without being wired up.

situation: bothered by his poor health, i brought grandfather to the doc today. clearly a battery life issue; the doc told me "its very simple, you just need to change the internal battery @ $153"

me: *stun*

dejected, i left the clinic...


the problem: now, im in a dilemna. i have 2 options.

a) service the grandfather for 153 bucks and risk other complications arising, considering that its a 3-year-old gadget)

b) part with my sentimental feelings, pay 436 bucks for space and technology i don't need. (its 10Gb more than my current abundance of 20Gb and im not a visual kindof person), but definitely it would be able to last me longer.


so please, help me to make a decision. i NEED, not want an iPod. the nanos are too small for me.

guitarization

What am I fighting for?

its been a tough week. but fortunately get to have a bit of breather before it all begins again tmr. Sandcastle workshop at ECP was great. the castles were beautiful, and with a bit of crappy advertising, it all summed up. next week's gonna be better!

and i;ve been learning abit of the guitar.. thx so much to joel and chengsong. though its still complicated, i'll take my time to figure things out. heh. anw, i rate myself as fast learner! i can alr play 2 songs! (its only my forth day) so yay! Lester the guitarist!

Im coming back to the heart of Worship,

and It's all about You,

Its all about You,

Jesus

I'm sorry Lord for the things I've made it

when its all about You,

It's all about You,

Jesus

today's been a rather legendary day. went to school expecting a few knocks, but it proved a little more than expected

u know the feeling of being a accused of sth u din do? it sux. oh well.. when ur dealing with a tyrant (and a proud one at that), u just gotta suck i up. 2 years in this shit i've sucked more than u can imagine... oh well.. dats life. pick it up and move on, b4 the tyrant catches up again.. its all for your own good.


later part of the day proved to be better. thx to joel with his PEH, ms ng and da laopo who are my personal facilitators. YAY.!


109, and the dy/dy is nearly infinity.. i just gotta keep climbing

and climbing

and climbing

and climbing

until i reach the peak of realisation.


till then, i need more karabiners....

its just been an admin nightmare. cca record driving the exco crazy...

anw back from ltc like ysd. man it was a blast, but i hardly slept. Lac bunks were nice though, but WCP was siat...


realli blessed to have such a great bunch of ppl to facilitate. SIR ECTOR ROCKS!.


happy bdae to quelyn and ben. esp Bsquare hope u had a great day and next time pls dun celebrate ur bdae on the rooftop.



and ms chiew zhnged her car!! pictures soon...

what i've done

What I've Done - Linkin Park

In this farewell
There’s no blood
There’s no alibi
‘Cause I’ve drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies

[Pre-Chorus:]
So let mercy come
And wash away
What I’ve done

[Chorus:]
I'll face myself
To cross out what i’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what i’ve done

Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands of uncertainty

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

For what I’ve done
I start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I’m forgiving what I’ve done

[Chorus]

What I’ve done
Forgiving what I’ve done




---------------------------------


Ok. im slightly addicted to this song - maybe its an understatement. All thanks to Transformers the movie. For all you who haven done so, pls go watch it. Im sure its better than F4/HP.

found.
torn.
lost.



poisson poisson all the way!



So let mercy come
And wash away
What I’ve done
I'll face myself
To cross out what i’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what i’ve done

nuts

Chuyi: jiayou for the rest of your papers!
Me: yeah.. i need alot of you... erm.. as in "you".. hahah..
Chuyi: haha. why U want U? U should look for A! U can make it de!


me: *went nuts*




Ector Ector all the way!

Oh, my dear,

You were there at my highest,
You stood with me at my lowest.
You know the desires of my heart,
and help me to be earnest.

I sometimes stray,
But you guided me back onto the right path.
You took me in when i was lost,
protected me against the weathering storms.

You are what i look forward to,
you are what i call my second home.

you are my source of joy, my source of hope.
You, my room 3-47.





haha... stunned? yeah room 3-47 is now council room II. our standard mugger hangout. it has been, and will be our new home =)). catch ya there-=))

mugging has drained whatever energy i have left out of me. i struggled to get to this site... anw, 3 more days to mid years and 130 days to 'A's... gosh... im gonna mug like i never mug before...

anw, just a short one about a conversation i overheard 2 nights ago.


i was on the bus home and at the seat behind me were 2 ladies chatting rather audibly. [i later realised they were about their middle/late 20s]. i did not want to be a buzybody, but they obviously made no effort in trying to keep their conversations to themselves, almost as though they were proud of the content of their conversation.

aniway, it din require me to pay special attention to be able to hear that they were complaining about their parents. one was crictising how "stupid" her father was in not knowing how to operate a cellphone that his children gave him. the other was complaining how "dumb" her father was when he did not know how to operate the VCR properly.

"__" signify acutal word used in chinese translation.

from what i could get of the story, she was giving her father instructions for the VCR over the phone, when she went out with her firends to party and forgotten to set the recording herself. knowing that her father isnt tech-savvy, she gave her father step-by-step instrctions on what buttons to press. when she came home, she found out that the vcr wasnt even turned on in the first place and she hollered at her father (yeah she seemed quite proud abt it). she even exclaimed that her father had "no common sense" to know that he should have turned on the VCR first.

to lady: IMO, it was obviously your fault that knowing your father isnt tech savvy, did not instruct him to turn on the power first. in any case, he is doing you a FAVOUR!, not a obligation. and if it the show meant that much to you, why din u do it urself in the first place! like hello, that guy's ur father, not ur boyfriend. it isnt like his duty....

poor father, the only mistake he ever made was in not teaching his daughter to respect and appreciate the elders.

The Bible

Damn cool. u guys gotta watch this.
it takes some time to load but its worth it.

who understands?

sometimes, it feel like u cut ur flesh to feed a starving man
den he spit it out and say: "yucks! too hard!"

and the heart breaks.

137 days to 'A's

filinf up the files

i compiled, punched hole and filed up all my phy, econs and geog lecture notes today... whee!!! all my files all full already. damn scary...

wah geog is ultimate i tell u. i bought a new file (the huge type) just to put geog notes and readings only, and i though it was more than enough but NO!!!. some reading bo bian cannot squeeze alr have to put separately. and thats like only H1. my h2 econs and phy notes add together still less than geog.

to let u have a feel of how thick it is, if i take all the small perforated bits out of my hole punch and throw at u, it prob can make u unconscious.

hah ok jk, thats ultra exaggerated, but yeah, its still scary.. [i heard h2 geog students need 3 of those huge files]

im gonna pack my maths notes tmr... oh shit, i ran out of files...




thats my JC life...

packed, set, go!

exercise muggeration went quite alright today -other than the fact that i woke up near 1pm. heh. 140 days to 'A's... dun play play...

whoo!!! im so darn proud of myself.. i packed my room!!! yay!!!! from one huge lump of mess, it is now 5 neat stacks of mess - one for each subject. YAY!! *rolls eyes*


ok, im in the i-think-i-need-to-get-a-tan kindof mood. any takers?

updatee!

whoo. i finally changed my blogskin after like a zillion years? ok thisis to get me into muggeration mode... hope it helps... =) let me noe if the font s like too big, too small whatsoever =))

Mengenal-Mu

Bila buka mataku
dan lihat wajahMu
kuterkagum

Bila kulihat hidupku
dan karya tanganMu
kutersanjung

Kar'na semua yang baik
dalam hidupku itulah karyaMu
Kau b'ri kesempatan yang baru

Dan ku ingin mengenalMu Tuhan
Lebih dalam dari s'mua yang kukenal
Tiada kasih yang melebihiMu
Ku ada untuk menjadi penyembahMu

當我睜開我的雙眼
仰望主的榮面　
滿心感謝

主因你大能的雙手
改變我的生命　
你愛不變

喔主　你奇妙恩典
充滿每一天
你的美好作為
讓我　能重新為你活

我願　能更深認識你　我主
我深渴聖靈你美好同在
沒有任何能與你　相比
我願一生歌唱敬拜　耶穌我主


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nope ur not seeing things. its still my blog though its all indonesian and chinese... its the lyrics for a very nice worship song in indonesian. and of cos the translation in chinese. never sang it in english before so i realli dunno... u can find this song on imeem =)

GSS is quite a dissappointmnt... hmm whatever... im gonna spend more time shopping at adeline's instead...

celebrated jo'an's bdae ysd. had a fun time camping with amal. haha... like CS litad.. generally a happenning day...


LTC facil training was tiring... totally knocked out. din even feel like eating... oh well...


anw, my 6280 got back from reservist. nokia practically gave me brand new phone except for the screen. camera, keypad, entire rear component, casing all new. software also new. think its gonna last for till prelims at least. so its bye bye N95....



EMERGE starts tmr!! whooo!!!! JC/CI cluster is so gonna be champs again... =))





enjoying my civilian life.

todae was WHOOOO!!

st.james wit 29thsc and half of the rest of nyjc was fun.. and i initially thot councillors will be quite left out cos this party really aint conceptualised to celebrate council's success. but turns out we kinda stole the limelight a bit. the rest of ny must hate sc now. hah! but i still think we hyped things up quite abit. w/o 29th and 30th there, think things wld be different. its not a bad thing to be enthu siao-ons

though we walked in and waked out with the daylight still shining bright(no we din club overnight), it was still great fun. sweating it out on an overpacked dancefloor, freeflow drinks, sabo-ing ppl, seeing the teachers (trying to) poledance. its truly once in a lifetime. beats clubbing with anyone else (i think)

POC was soso, but it made me wish i was william turner.. hmm.. dats all for now. civilian life rocks....

i looked into the mirror and panicked for a split second; why is my collar so empty?



sitting a partition away from the 30th exco meeting, hearing them laugh and all, i felt a tinge of jealousy. i wanna be part of the action all over again...


but poor kids, God knows what time they ended their meeting today. Heck, im enjoying my civilian life =) shopping rocks.

Day 1 as a non-councillor:


i see the 30th with their badges and im so darn proud of them. morning announcement was cancelled, oh well its fate. we'll find a way around anyway.

feels weird. how the title is off but yet the burden weighs firmly on my houlders. i noe im hallucinating but it seems like eyes of expectations are everywhere. i want to be me, but then again, after one year, maybe this is already... me.

ALL TO YOU

NOW IS THE TIME
WHEN HEAVEN BLENDS
WITH EARTHLY SAINTS
THE WORLD RESOUNDS
AS ANGELS SING
"OUR GOD REIGNS"

I GIVE MY ALL TO YOU
I GIVE MY ALL TO YOU

FROM HEAVENS THRONE
YOUR RIVER FLOWS TO THIS LAND
AND ON THIS ROCK
FOUNDATIONS LAY
HERE WE STAND
I GIVE MY ALL TO YOU
I GIVE MY ALL TO YOU

POURING OUT THIS TREASURE YOU GAVE IN YOUR PROMISES, OUR HEARTS TURN BRAVE I WILL ARISE AND LAY DOWN THIS SACRIFICE AS WE'RE BUILDING YOUR HOUSE ON HIGH

YOUR KINGDOM COME
YOUR WILL BE DONE
ON EARTH AS IN HEAVEN

YOUR KINGDOM COME
YOUR WILL BE DONE
ON EARTH AS IN HEAVEN

Today, as i read out her name, the 3 syllybus flowed so smoothly, the feelings of complexity behind it was totally consealed. The LT shook with cheers of jubilance. My hands were clapping vigorously. I couldn't hide the smile. i cant remember the last time i had such joy come from within, but it didn't take long for the truth behind it to sink it. I didn't let it show. Or at least i thought so. The joy and the sorrow didnt go too well together. It was then i realised, its the beginning of an end.

love you twentinine.

LOL. by popular demand, LESTER IS BACK!!!


wahaha... but life still sux. study __________ study ___________ study


thank GOD in between studies there is COUNCIL!!!!
not to be so in some 42 days time. looking back at how i made the decision some 320 days ago is still amazing, and life has since transformed so much..... oh well, now is not a good time to get all emo about it.


been reaching sch at 7am for a couple of days already. as such, im suffering from serious sleep deficiency, causing me not not stay o awake in less exciting lectures... basket. and the worse thing is that the ppl whom im supposed to meet keep coming late! think maybe i should just heck and sleep a little longer...


oh well blogging suddenly feels so alien. i need to find my touch back...



oh and i must announce that i passed blocks with 2h2s and 2h1s. not outstanding grades, but goos enough reason to beproud of myself =))) next stop: mid years!!!! *screams*

den prelims

den 'A's

den LIBERATION!!




but for now its back to reality... =((



bed time.. tata.......

Every Little Thing - Delirious?

Everything must change
There’s a mirror showing me the ugly truth
These bones they ache with holy fire
But I’ve got nothing to give, just a life to live
If your world is without colour
I will carry you, if you carry me

Every little thing’s gonna be alright
Every little thing’s gonna be alright [x2]

There’s no-one else to blame
I live my life between the fire and the flame
I’ve built my house where the ocean meets the land
It’s time to live again, pull my dreams out of the sand
Let your world be full of colour
I will carry you, if you carry me

When it’s all falling down on you
You’re crying out but you’re breaking in two
When it’s all crashing down on you
When there’s nothing you can do
There is someone who can carry you

after so long, here's something to laugh at.





lmao.

Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.

screw the damn blog. will update when i feel ike it.

im back! actually back for a few days already but blogging is just not a priority now. oh well christmas is coming. *smiles*.

ok whatever. i'll update when i feel like. till then.

OCIP!!! im offf to CHIANG RAI !!!!

be back in 2 weeks! 16 dec. till then, dun miss me!

wah so long no update. sry been buzy + lazy.

Off to council retreat tmr. wow im so gonna enjoy the fun...

the time has come, to stand for all we believe in...

legend.

was at bishan library, the childrens colletion, reading some TIMEs magzines, when this small boy came and wanted to borrow this small cushion which i wasnt realli using. i agreed and he was happily going to leave with it. when he politely (and innocently) said: "thank you, (short pause) uncle!"



legend.


______________


i look young and youthful, i look young and youthful, i look young and youthful, i look young and youthful, i look young and youthful.

hazard lah. this sucks but im lovin' it.

5 more months. i oso want to ORD!

when looking forward doesn't help very much. im too lazy to pen my feelings. nights.

after some observation, i realised that the best way to identify singaporeanism is by observing ppl's behavior on the 3 public transport.


BUS:

1. seating on the aisle side of the seat, delibrately leaving the inside seat empty yet inacessible
2. standing right smack in the center of the aisle midway during morning rush hour, rufusing to move in nor let ppl thru, yet giving the "why is the bus so squeezy?" look.
3. chit chatting with the bus driver in a desprate attempt to distract his attention from the fact that u cant afford the bus fare.
4. acting like ur blnd so u dun have to pay the fare.
5. mothers insisting that their child are too young thus need not pay.
6. when tapping ur ezlink card once is never enough.


MRT:

1. at the station, a long queue is formd up by ppl waiting to gt their hands on a free copy of 'Today' or 'My Paper'
2. when waiting for train to arrive, delibrately standing at the door so u'll be the first to rush in.
3. leaning on the pole in the train, depriving everyone else of sth to hold on to.
4. standing right at the door when your not alighting anytime soon.
5. pretending to be sleeping when u see a pregnant lady step in.


Taxi:

1. trying to out-queue each other by standing higher up along the road.
2. flagging a cap 100m before a taxi stand.
3. taxi driver charging passengers even the 10 cents that jumped when the vehicle stopped.



thats as much as i can think of now. still proud to be singaporean? i am.

here comes the pain.